I feel like I've been breathing out of an exhaust pipe
On the job site, with a fist full of brittle sand
Should've seen it coming/ a mile away from that little hill in which I'm making a stand on
It makes a man of me, (doesn't it?) and if it never kills me then I get a pass
Wish I coulda opened up the air around me just a little bit so I could take a gasp
Who the hell is watchin?
Put a notch in; my belt, keep it on the track
'Shoulda-Woulda-Coulda' never made a difference
When you're playing chicken with your only chance
But it made a man of me right? Mad man
I gotta dance around and play in sounds...
Wish I knew back then what I know now
Ya look at me now
Dodging forever
Spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it, never learned how
All of this pressure is driving me wild
Look at me now
Look at me now
I'm starting to feel like it's stackin on my shoulders
Another soldier with little patience to see the dawn
Fought a lot of odds in the name of "Cause,"
Put 'em in a box; buried in the lawn
But I learned a lesson from it, (didn't I?)
And if I didn't who the hell is gonna teach me?
I've been looking for answers and none of em ever offer the lesson that'll reach me
Who can see me? -Losing personal relationships like people do their house keys
I've been outside, looking inside, with a shadow casted all around me
And they doubt me, try to throw a little part of me away with every frown
Just wish they saw what I know now
Yeah, look at me now
Dodging forever
Spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it, never learned how
All of this pressure is driving me wild
Look at me now
Look at me now