Love ain't what I thought it was
It turns out it chews you up
You're a gamble I enjoy
I'm learning how to lie and play coy
Getting used to a lot of things
Used to sit before you when you sit when you sing
And it's bad how you play on strings and steal my joy
Pause my blinking
We'll stumble through trauma
Tryna get how to answer when I ask if you love me
It's the not knowing that damages my soul
But I love you
The wanting to be chosen's better than not being
I'm finding
I'm not patient
Not inherently
I'll change a round peg to a square hole
Rather than choosing the right size to fit
Now that I know you're square
I'm unconscious contrition
First
I was wounded
Then sympathized with
Now
I'm normal
Regular guy
What you want
Do my best
I'm so fun
I'll miss the rest
I'm knowing you're not even trying for this
We'll stumble through trauma
Tryna get how to answer when I ask if you love me
It's the not knowing that damages my soul
But I love you
The wanting to be chosen's better than not being
I'm finding