They said, “Just get into college”
So I held it all inside
Sweat and dreams on the court
Chasing freedom in my mind
I thought I’d have it all
Parties, lights, a brand new start
But since that first semester
I’ve been slowly falling apart
Clubbin’ every night of the week
Yeah, I swore I was the king
But the louder the music got
The lonelier I’d sing
I thought 20 would be different
Like a movie, like a dream
But I lost my sense of purpose
Chasing every shiny scene
I was wild, I was reckless
Living fast but feeling less
20 wasn’t freedom, it was
Me fading into the mess
All the stars I used to chase
Turned to shadows in the haze
Guess 20 wasn’t magic
It was just the start of maze
20’s not the finish line
It’s the start of losing time
Now I know that growing up
Ain’t always a steady climb