don’t know what to do with these tickets
want nothing at Chuck E. Cheese’s
say no to Frappuccino
get dark roasted Americano
metabolism gets slower
and I learn to leave leftovers
hangovers now last all day
and each day gets shorter
picking up a new hobby flip floppy
got time to invest into nobody
meeting people ain’t like before
on a day off I’d rather stay indoors
one by one dreams become practical
(all) I need is money
what you wanna be
I wanna be ordinary
not an astronaut
so please ask me not
oh dreams will I shed you like skin
next achievements used to be more concrete
rewarded with stickers and framed degrees
follow the instructions for success guaranteed
they said
*I was young and formative
had my life laid out in front of me
I hit the ball and I ran
circled the bases
I’m left wondering
what forms my basis
what will my legacy be
will it be good deeds
that supersede my heresy
who will speak for me
when I no longer breathe
no matter, I’ll finally be free
I grow lonelier as I grow older
my contacts keep growing but scroll through
and find not a soul to call
from acquaintances with growing distances
gotta grit my teeth through growing pains
desensitized to chronic pains
wounds don’t heal as quickly and leave stains
like a new phone with a cracked screen
cheeks so clean to pimpled teen
to noticing wrinkles under my eyes unforeseen
let the nature take its course
through the milestones in eroded roads
graduations and weddings
baby showers and housewarmings
when mommy had me
was she ready
I don’t think I’ll ever be
always in my prime
it’ll be gone in due time
in the meantime
I’ll appreciate the present
and place you and me
higher in priority
oh love will I shed you like hair
with you here took you granted like air
real recognize real
didn’t recognize real
when I had real
am I real
will you tell me what’s real
are you real
think I need rehab
to recall what we had
give me that weed yeah