I counted every scar you left behind
Wrote down all the lies you fed my mind
Told myself I hated you enough
But hate fades faster than the love
Even the worst, I still remember
Your smile cuts deeper in cold December
I burned your letters, threw out your name
But your ghost still dances inside my veins
Even the worst, I still remember
Even when I swear I never, never would
I scream you're gone but breathe you still
A hollow space I can't refill
I rehearsed the reasons you should be gone
Built a fortress out of everything wrong
But one small laugh, a touch, a glance
Crashes through all my defense
Even the worst, I still remember
Your laughter haunts colder than December
I burned the bridges, erased the calls
But you linger in the cracks of my walls
Even the worst, I still remember
Even when I swear I never, never would
I whisper goodbyes but hold you still
An empty room my heart can't fill
I hate you, I miss you, I need you, I don't
I'm free, but I'm chained by the echoes you wrote
Forgiveness was never the plan
But forgetting you... I just never began
Even the worst, I still remember
Still remember... still remember...
Even the worst, I still remember
Your laughter haunts colder than December
I burned the bridges, erased the calls
But you linger in the cracks of my walls
Even the worst, I still remember
Even when I swear I never, never would
I whisper goodbyes but hold you still
An empty room my heart can't fill
...still remember...