I wake up, blink twice
Same ceiling, same sky
I eat, I speak, I move
But don’t ask me why
I used to cry in colors
Now it’s only grayscale
I laugh when I should
But it’s hollow as hell
Nothing feels like anything
Not joy, not pain, not light
I fake my way through morning
And disappear by night
They say I'm getting better
But I feel even less
If numb is what they wanted
Then I guess I passed the test
I forget what warm felt like
I forget what real tears do
I hold a smile like armor
And hope it gets me through
I wasn’t always distant
I used to feel it all
But feeling means you're living
And that’s the hardest part to call
Nothing feels like anything
I’m watching life go by
With hands inside my pockets
And silence in my eyes
They say that time can fix it
But I don’t even care
Because I can’t remember
What it's like to even care
Maybe this is normal now
Maybe this is me
A body still in motion
Without a memory
Nothing feels like anything
And I’m tired of the sound
Of people trying to lift me
When I’m buried in the ground
So if I seem too quiet
If I don’t react or scream
It’s not that I don’t feel
It’s just I forgot the dream
Nothing feels
Like anything