It's so easy to blame you
you're the one who got me pregnant
and left
Halfway through cleaning
up after breakfast this morning
So I pick up
the pieces
and finish what we started
When they call me by my name
It roars in my ears
Sumersaults and chartwheels
When they call me by my name
For a moment it clears
And I'm dancing through the minefield
I'm 100 percent present
Singing the 10th lullaby tonight
As I
secretly stare at pictures
Of an ardent me from a bygone time
and I hear them calling
But I'll be here
for the next 18 years
When they call me by my name
It roars in my ears
Sumersaults and chartwheels
When they call me by my name
For a moment it clears
And I'm dancing through the minefield
I'm afraid of getting lost
Afraid of not loving enough
Terrified of being caught
In simply loving myself to much
Cause my time is not my own
Every minute to myself just feels so wrong
I miss not being needed but wanted
I know this is where I belong but
When they call me by my name
It roars in my ears
Sumersaults and chartwheels
When they call me by my name
For a moment it clears
And I'm dancing through the minefield