(Gunshot)
(Telephone Ringing)
[Operator]
Suicide Hotline, may I help you?
[Jack Jeckel]
Yeah... Uh... Well I'm about to fuckin' kill myself.
[Operator]
Listen. You don't wanna do that OK? You don't wanna do that.
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm getting...
It's so many fuckin' reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore,
[Operator]
There's no reason-
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm gonna put a SLUG in my FUCKIN' HEAD!
[Operator]
You don't wanna do that, you wanna be here on Earth OK?
[Jack Jeckel]
Fuck that shit man! I got a gun right now-,
[Operator]
Put it away! Please!
[Jack Jeckel]
-And I got it right under my chin man. Fuck that!
[Operator]
Take it away from your chin,
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm gonna fuckin' blow my head all over the ceiling,
[Operator]
No, you're not. OK.
[Jack Jeckel]
Fuck this shit man!
[Operator]
Hey, just talk to me OK?
[Jack Jeckel]
It ain't no point to me waking up,
Everybody's time I'm taking up,
[Operator]
No!
[Jack Jeckel]
I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near,
I can't stay here,
And it's colder there,
[Operator]
Where?
[Jack Jeckel]
I don't wanna look back, cause it's gonna hurt,
I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt,
[Operator]
No!
[Jack Jeckel]
For me, everybody holds a hate,
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake,
It's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive,
Bustin' at myself and I'm tryin'a survive,
[Operator]
Oh...
[Jack Jeckel]
I'll disappoint you... and I will let you down,
And I ain't got many homeboys comin' around,
[Operator]
No?
[Jack Jeckel]
You don't understand-,
[Operator]
-Oh, yes I do-,
[Jack Jeckel]
So don't say you do,
I swear I'll put a mothafuckin' slug in you,
[Operator]
Now, Now,
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm the only one,
The lonely one,
At home,
Alone,
Loading a gun, thinking, "Why not?",
[Operator]
OK, you have feeling inside your head OK?,
I understand that,
Feelings lead to depression,
When you have depression... you have a lonely void inside your heart,
OK? And your heart... means everything to the world... OK?
[Jack Jeckel]
I got court coming up, I stoled a truck,
I got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck,
I wanna get high, but I got a piss test,
[Operator]
Well?,
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm always first name on top of shit list,
[Operator]
No,
[Jack Jeckel]
Get this,
The wenches made my chest,
His permanent nightly visiting nest,
[Operator]
What?
[Jack Jeckel]
It ain't no clothes that I look good in,
I'm the mothafuckin' big red train that couldn't,
I got no family, I stoled they shit,
[Operator]
Oh, OK,
[Jack Jeckel]
Restraining orders and I still won't quit,
I hit rock-bottom, and then I fell in a hole,
And then I fell through the floor,
Of that hole some more,
I've been missing for a year, nobody's looking,
[Operator]
I am,
[Jack Jeckel]
I got beatdown and my shit tooken,
[Operator]
Oh,
[Jack Jeckel]
I look ahead and all I see is more of the same,
Or this self-inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain,
[Operator]
OK... Now I understand that you're in pain OK?
I understand... everything you're going through,
I've been there myself... OK?
Now... your pain is my pain... alright,
And I feel your pain,
And I wanna be your friend,
Just me and you... friends,
[Jack Jeckel]
I dream about cuttin' heads off with a shovel,
[Operator]
What?
[Jack Jeckel]
The dreams are getting serious, I think I'm in trouble,
[Operator]
Oh my,
[Jack Jeckel]
I don't hold memory for more than an hour,
I'm tired as fuck and I'm drained in power,
I ain't halfway there and I'm all outta time,
I'm like a crushed light-bulb... all outta shine,
[Operator]
Oh, no,
[Jack Jeckel]
I've been around the world, ain't no place as home,
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome,
I'm butt naked... I've been jacking off, getting drunk,
It's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck,
[Operator]
Me,
[Jack Jeckel]
It don't matter,
[Operator]
No?,
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm doing this shit in the garage,
Tryin'a make it easier for them to clean my head splosh,
Thsi bitch I loved... I hope she finds me,
Still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me,
[Operator]
Wait, wait,
[Jack Jeckel]
I'm 'bout to do it,
[Dial tone]
[Operator]
NO!,
[Jack Jeckel]
Can you hold for a second?
[Operator]
Wait a min-,
[Click]
[Jack Jeckel]
Hello,
[Girl]
Hey, what's up?
[Jack Jeckel]
Where you at?
[Girl]
Right down the street,
[Jack Jeckel]
With who?
[Girl]
My girl, Shannon. We were wondering if we could stop by,
[Jack Jeckel]
Well shit... Yeah. Come on by,
[Girl]
Really?
[Jack Jeckel]
Yeah... Ey, ey... ey.
[Girl]
I know, bring some blunts. Alright,