I called to my memory
"why I failed in my life "
sitting on the edge of a despair
The most scary thing is
there was no answer
and, endlees recurrent fault.
In fetters, Just volition of saying remains,
/never reach to action/
that was true.continuing sense of loss,
and pain on repetition.
It was who i was.
I would solace myself
with saying I was better than I am"
I was better than I am"
I cannot bare the shame
As falling into balck-hole,
/crossing the event horizon.
I was almost sucked into that.
and i was falling into the dark side.
falling into the dark side.
dark side
creeping out.
I only wish to get to the road that never go again.
I already knew it.
have a heart
Have to change.  Whatever it is.
Everything is wrong. /I must collect my mind.
There is no one who cares you./
Go faster than the world.
See the flow of the world, and Make the live /
with throwing myself into infinite world.
/Nothing changed by only hope./
with throwing myself into hell this time.
/Nothing happend by only oblivion./
Be the vicious realist.
Sudden chance would not come to men
/who was not ready.Grab a chance,/
stand up by yourself
It was long time ago to throw out a grand mind.
It would be too much for me living in a level,
/not only that reason (but also compromise)
with reality and survival.
Give me a power /that i can shake /
white monsters trying to grab my legs off.
Now i am going out /from vortex with it./
Going straight with a force of life,
defeating enemies /in front of ma eyes/
Coming out from gripping hands, mocking at your pain
/Then I will cross the sea with gripping him./
Your black heart behind the shadow /would be broken by my bloodfist./