Since the night
I crashed the truck
I’ve had my jaw wired shut
For the first time in my life
I cannot tell you a lie
I know I said that
I’d rein in this poison
in my veins
but my heart is stapled
to a riverbed
somewhere in my head
See I lost my self esteem
back in 1983
when my mom and dad
left me in the care
of Aunt Irene
Oh nthe things
she said to me would bring
a grown man to his knees
Guess I’m still there
after all these goddamn
years drowning in my fear
There’s the face
I used to wear underneath
that greasy hair
I could turn those blue
eyes black with one hand
tied behind me
There’s the glass that
broke my fall
or was it really there at all
Maybe I landed with pride
or maybe I’m still falling
In the morning light
as I bleed on pavement
I search the sky for
what was taken
I can’t talk
I only scream for what
I lost inside of me
Now I am nothing
You are all I have left
Since the night
I crashed the truck
I’ve had my jaw wired shut
For the first time in my life
I cannot tell you a lie
I know I said that
I’d rein in this poison
in my veins
but my heart is stapled
to a riverbed
somewhere in my head
See I lost my self esteem
back in 1983
when my mom and dad
left me in the care
of Aunt Irene
Oh nthe things
she said to me would bring
a grown man to his knees
Guess I’m still there
after all these goddamn
years drowning in my fear
There’s the face
I used to wear underneath
that greasy hair
I could turn those blue
eyes black with one hand
tied behind me
There’s the glass that
broke my fall
or was it really there at all
Maybe I landed with pride
or maybe I’m still falling
In the morning light
as I bleed on pavement
I search the sky for
what was taken
I can’t talk
I only scream for what
I lost inside of me
Now I am nothing
You are all I have left
Since the night
I crashed the truck
I’ve had my jaw wired shut
For the first time in my life
I cannot tell you a lie
I know I said that
I’d rein in this poison
in my veins
but my heart is stapled
to a riverbed
somewhere in my head
See I lost my self esteem
back in 1983
when my mom and dad
left me in the care
of Aunt Irene
Oh nthe things
she said to me would bring
a grown man to his knees
Guess I’m still there
after all these goddamn
years drowning in my fear
There’s the face
I used to wear underneath
that greasy hair
I could turn those blue
eyes black with one hand
tied behind me
There’s the glass that
broke my fall
or was it really there at all
Maybe I landed with pride
or maybe I’m still falling
In the morning light
as I bleed on pavement
I search the sky for
what was taken
I can’t talk
I only scream for what
I lost inside of me
Now I am nothing
You are all I have left